Sunday, May 27, 2012

More Sadness

In just over a month, i have learned of 3 families who lost babies. A high school acquaintance recently moved to Africa for a missionary trip.  Their 2 y.o. had an accident and was taken to the hospital.  The little boy seemed to be improving, but he died.  

A friend emailed that she was sorry if she wasn't herself; her best friend's 5 month old baby died.  She didn't have the autopsy results, but they believe he choked on his milk.  I replied back that my heart ached for the family and if there was anything she needed, to let me know.  I don't think my friend knows about Sara.  We just became friends within the past year through our children's day school.  I didn't want my email to become about me. "I lost a baby and I know what they are going through."  I don't like to deny Sara, I just didn't think that was the right time to bring up my story.

Lastly but closest to my heart, my cousin lost her son at 23 weeks.  She was in the hospital on a Thursday  and the baby was still ok.  I kept crocheting his blanket that evening, trying to be positive.  Friday the baby was delivered and he survived for 24 hours.  I was so sad for her.  I know she wants a baby so badly.  Dh & I went to the graveside service.  I brought back s many memories.  My cousin came to Sara's memorial service.  Who would have guessed then that i would be attending her baby's service?  After the service, I returned to work.  I was so sad, I just wanted cry.  Was this how our family felt when Sara died? Just completely helpless.

Knowing these stories though takes me back to the early days after losing Sara.  Wondering how my life would turn out.  Afraid to go out in public because there were just too many reminders.  

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Dream Come True

Has anyone read or seen the article about the baby in Argentina?  The doctors thought she was stillborn, (she WAS born 3 months early), she was taken to the morgue.  Twelve hours later her parents were allowed to see her and say good-bye.

Instead they discovered that  their baby was alive.

Who in DeadBabyLand hasn't fantasized that that was how their story turned out.  "This is all a bad dream, my baby is fine and waiting for me."

Tuesday, February 28, 2012


Know what this is?  It's a baby blanket I'm crocheting for my cousin!  After losing twins last summer, she's pregnant again!  This time they are having only one baby.  The baby is due is August, my cousin's birth month - what a wonderful gift!

I've had several thoughts running through my head, nothing earth-shattering or profound, but I've been running around after a busy 4 year old boy and that's more important lately.